It's fine
I think that in life things happen and you got to learn and move on
Moving on as a concept can seem passive-aggressive if you're being told to do so but in a way it's the best possible way to let the water flow under the bridge
The past month has been rough for me, lots of severed ties. The one thing I leave with it all is the fact that I can further focus on myself, my pursuits, my ambitions.
Breakups are tough. But after a few days, you kinda forget that they happened. It's just life
I would frequently talk on this little blog about how terrible university is going for me, how I'm constantly 'mentally drained'... For the first time in a while, my academics are looking up. Perhaps this will be the semester I can above a 3.5 in? Alongside that, with my sudden departure from my massive college club as an administrative member, Life is quiet in a good way. No more needless responsibilities
My site has a heavy emphasis on photography, but for the past year, there had been times where I was genuinely not dabbling in photography because of my busy busy life. I could make a site dedicated to college-run radio stations, geography, urban planning... but who the hell wants to hear about my jobs? Respectfully I do love my internship in geography and in some ways still have a soft spot for college radio stations, but those are supposed to take up a different part of my headspace, and not some section on my little website.
2.25.25It's terrible again
So uh. Yeah
My relationship fell through, sudden break up. Don't know how I can respond. She just dropped it on me. She had her valid reasons I suppose, pleading to me that "it's not you it's me. you deserve someone better. I don't think I have enough time" I've had this happen to me before.
Which is why I am tired of it, drained of energy, and hopeless. I don't think I can tell her anything after her sudden message.
I will crawl back into my hole, get away from people, focus on myself more. It's miserable. The college station has already ruined me. I don't know who to lean on now.
Anyways, I have gotten rid of my PDX-10 and replaced it with a HVR-A1U. Little funny guy! I talk a lot about my video gear but I've never actually uploaded any of my work to here. I'll be placing some Vimeo links up soon in a new page once I create an account.
2.21.25Moving on
2025 so far has been a lot of changes, mostly positive.
After a couple failed relationships, I'm finally in one where it feels so genuine that I've never realized how much I needed it... :')
I've decided to forever part ways with the college radio station I was a part of. I talked about it much in 2023 when I was at my most active, but in recent months I was being actively mistreated and disrespected in my administrative role in the station, and decided that it was not worth it. Since I've left I've been in a much better mood overall. Thanks for the fun times and for wasting the first half of my time in university, I guess.
Some of my recent videography work got a lot of publicity and was praised by many people. Feels nice upgrading to the HVR-Z1U now, and I'm hoping to go exciting places with my much better set up. Purchased an HVR-A1U as a secondary HD camcorder and a capturing deck (wouldn't really want to use the Z1U strictly for field work and capturing). If you still use DV tape in the field, you'd understand the importance of having a deck as opposed to your main camera being your deck.
Positive things happen in your life and you feel like you have lots of control over the trajectory of things... like academics, job stuff...
Despite 2025 feeling globally like the U.S. is eating its own tail, so far the year has been good to me personally. Hopefully the year will be great for all of you as well. :)
2.10.25Yeah!!!
Everything is going very well!
Lots of good things are happening in my life. My birthday is tomorrow, turning 21 finally.
Getting new camcorder right now. PDX10 broke after 3 months of use. 0 hours on all of the use, only 50 threads on the settings.
I am getting a Sony HVR-Z1U (HDV) as a replacement. Finally moving onto HD in 2025 LOL
1.23.25New year... Kinda terrifying to think we're now mid way through the decade. Anyhow, wrote up a whole ass essay here. Read it if you want to waste your time!
nothing much to say
unrelated, but I got some cool records from constellation up in montreal. kicker in tow, hrsta, and dmst. they left me a thank you note but I cannot find it :<
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